Landslide

 

As I grow older, I start to realize

What some family connections have meant to me over the many years

 But it seems you never realize this until they are gone

 Those people that were your rock

Allowing you to be the rock for everyone else are no longer there

 Without them you start to crumble

In doing so those people who count on you also start to crumble

Until it is a huge landslide that is out of control

You search for other people to support you, so you may support others

But you search in vain

At this point the depression and self doubt that has always been a seed just below the surface

Takes hold It begins to grow like a twisted vine choking you off to wither and die